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Feeling Comfortable in my Own Skin

Growing up (we) my family and I didn’t have much. My siblings and I were bullied, and I didn’t have a lot of friends because I was too afraid to be hurt by anyone else. I didn’t trust anyone, and I kept quiet to not attract any attention to myself. I never knew why I…
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Expert, not – 4/21/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. So, the Sr. Manager struck me as an HR expert, but to find out that the program teams are the ones that are the real experts and do most of the HR tasks. She’s mostly just pushing paper to our central HR team which is the “real” HR team.…
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Friday reflection – the bickering comes my way – 4/17/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. This team is something else the bickering continues among each other. I was told that I should direct all my requests to MD “LAU” directly. (Blog 3/18/26) Director 1 told me there’s a process, but now she’s gone on vacation suddenly and did not send me the “process.” I…
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Tough day – 4/16/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. Tough day today for sure. My job is busier than ever. One of my siblings is going through a tough situation, nothing he can’t handle, but he’s pushing through. His wife left him and tried to see him torn, both financially and mentally. He’s a strong person and he…
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The showdown in my favor? – 4/14/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. I was expecting a showdown between myself and the “corner” over “PEI” sharing with others to come to me for any financial help despite I am not assigned to her projects. “PEI” is fully aware which projects I work on and it’s not hers. Her boss “DD” fully supports…
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Friday reflection – troublemakers – 4/10/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. For today I had peace, very productive, updating tasks, and resolving open inquiries. I had a great conversation with the sponsor. The agency is happy with my work, the submitted request for budgets to support our programs, and results of the programs are at an all time high, really…
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Bad work ethic – 4/09/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. I’m not part of the click and they don’t care for me. I just found out today, it’s not that they don’t like me they are used to covering up for each other. We’re not friends and I don’t work like them. At times I’m isolated when I disagree…
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Friday reflection – Good Friday – 4/3/26
I hope everyone is okay. Now, I need to really protect my energy. I have too many people relying on me or upset because I’m thriving and they don’t know how. I’m ignoring all the negative energy too. I’m focused on problem-solving and facts, not arguing about who and what happened. I feel the need…
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Difficult conversations – 4/2/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. Having difficult conversations has become a regular thing for me. I learned to speak up for myself, but it’s ignored. At least I said it and I can move on. I’m being asked to make decisions and communicate those to the MD’s and certain things that should happen and…
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Last call! – 04/01/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. The title of my blog entry is the same as the email I sent today. “Last call for budget needs.” I used this phrase to capture the attention of my audience, LOL! No other way to do it. I needed them to review their budgets to be sure they…
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Budget deadline nearing – 3/31/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. The laptop charging cord crapped out on me and it had nothing to do with my USB connections and HDMI cables to extend the display monitors. I found one lying around and I had to improvise of keeping the laptop in one specific spot to charge and be able…