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Feeling Comfortable in my Own Skin

Growing up (we) my family and I didn’t have much. My siblings and I were bullied, and I didn’t have a lot of friends because I was too afraid to be hurt by anyone else. I didn’t trust anyone, and I kept quiet to not attract any attention to myself. I never knew why I…
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Making progress without her – 3/19/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. I think the MD noticed all the stalled work and decided to get to it today. 3 of 4 of us are working because Director 1 is out on vacation. The temper tantrum came at the right time for her. 😂 It’s funny that some people spend their time…
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Was I reprimanded? And she’s MIA – 3/18/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. I was having a good morning getting my day organized and chatting via teams with Director 2 answering questions regarding her budgets. Then she began to explain to me that she had an awkward conversation with MD “LAU,” “I was given a directive that I am not the head…
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What is she stuck on? – 3/17/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. I am just laughing so hard despite the annoying events of today. It’s not funny because there’s important work that takes place, but this woman takes the title “stuck on stupid.” I have never seen it anything like it before. There is one thing that you are intelligent and…
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Another problem – 3/12/26
Hope everyone is doing okay. Oh my gosh! It’s raining and thundering when it comes to the work tasks here for me. The harder I work, the more work I get. It never ends. I’m leaving for the day and MD “LAU” walks in to tell me about another problem she’s got. I’m already trying…
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Friday reflection – break it off – 3/13/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. My mind became bogged down with work. My stress level high, no time with my son who is on spring break this week from school, and my eye lids have been twitching for weeks. What is wrong with me? I caught myself taking on tasks that don’t belong to…
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Quietly holding work – 3/11/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. What going on? Is anyone working? I guess everyone is on spring break vacation and I’m the only one here. I can’t keep up with little sleep, jury duty, and dental and doctor appointments. All while I have 12 finance reports due by 3/15/26 and 3 work progress reports.…
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Friday reflection – questioning and working – 3/6/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. I’m working on so much to perfect the budgets, but I know it doesn’t exist. I am reminded that it will not be, nothing is. Only Jesus Christ is perfect. I do obsess and there’s only a couple people that can tell me to tone it down and stop…
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Budgets – 3/5/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. I appreciate the clarity, communication, and direction, above all honesty. MD “SE” was all of these during our budget exercise we’ve had to go through. This has taken me two weeks to build his own budget which he never had and I was a bit nervous as to how…
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Temper tantrum – 3/3/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. We had a meeting today with the administrator discussing the administrative fees and were not aligned across the projects. We will be audited by the sponsor so we have to get it right. We have to do our due diligence. Of course there goes the Sr. Manager talking about…
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Shutting us down – 3/2/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. For weeks Director 1 has been going back and forth between the MD and myself. She will normally come to me and ask questions that only I am able to answer. Truly she relies on me instead of actually caring to make notes or keep track. She goes back…