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Feeling Comfortable in my Own Skin

Growing up (we) my family and I didn’t have much. My siblings and I were bullied, and I didn’t have a lot of friends because I was too afraid to be hurt by anyone else. I didn’t trust anyone, and I kept quiet to not attract any attention to myself. I never knew why I…
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Friday reflection – burn out – 2/20/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. I am worried, fighting hard, and trying to persevere. I don’t know how long this will continue. I have to find a way to step back, but I get pulled right back in because there’s so much reliance on me and creates a lot of work. I get lost…
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Repeating patterns – 2/19/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. I had to take a step back from writing because I’ve had quite a few exhausting months and I’m behind on here. As you can see I’m still trying to catch up from February 2026. A lot more has transpired, but I will keep going, keep showing up, and…
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You cause more work than necessary – 2/18/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. She’s mad because I’m winning. Director 1 has been here with this department since 2019 and has not been able to get it. She’s attempted to try and make me lose it in front of her boss MD “LAU.” I have a feeling it’s her who wants to make…
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Friday reflection – pushing through – 2/13/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. I have had challenges this week, but people are beginning to listen and are accepting guidance. I do have people on my side and that’s okay. Despite the many of negative responses and emotions from others I’m holding strong through my experience, facts, and authenticity. A problem-solver I’ve become…
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Almost ended my day on a high note – 2/12/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. Wow! People just can’t let me have a good day. I got to the point of my day almost being over on a good note and it’s as if they know and they want to ruin it. I have put in a lot of effort, being positive, and prepping…
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Focused on the good – 2/11/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. I had a good day today and I don’t write many good entries about my job. After days of being anxious, a lot being asked of me by both internal and external requests. I’m fatigued and it’s been almost two weeks. I decided to take a break Friday and…
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To inconvenience me is okay – 2/10/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. I want to focus more on my blog, but I can’t I have so many other things going on that it’s difficult to keep up, but I write most of it in my journal, a little bit of room to breath as well. This allows me to get things…
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Are you bored? – 2/9/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. It’s been a while since I blogged. I haven’t had a chance to blog and read everyone’s posts either. So, just now I got some time to myself. My son’s birthday, my nieces baby shower, and my brother’s legal battle have kept me a little busy. As we all…
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Friday reflection – times of hard work – 2/6/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. I’ve been on high alert and unfocused at my regular tasks. This week as it has been since the beginning of the year seems much busier than last year. I’m a bit nervous, waiting to resolve the new deficit situation of finding $420K to fund an important program (blog…
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No one wants to talk to you – 2/4/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. I don’t like to be mean and I took the time to explain to the Sr. Manager the update on my projects. She tells me no one wants to talk to her and she was wondering why. I, of course, lied and told her I wasn’t sure. It’s not…