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Feeling Comfortable in my Own Skin – Stepping Out w/o Fear
Growing up (we) my family and I didn’t have much. My siblings and I were bullied, and I didn’t have a lot of friends because I was too afraid to be hurt by anyone else. I didn’t trust anyone, and I kept quiet to not attract any attention to myself. I never knew why I…
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Should I Share, Personal? – Friday Reflection – 5/26/23
Hello, I hope everyone is doing okay. I’m writing this entry a bit late. I haven’t had time to blog in the last few days, but I’m glad I am here now. From last week, I want to reflect on the boss writing about getting to know others on a personal level and at the…
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I Only Have a Black Eye to Show – 5/22/23
Hello, I hope everyone is doing okay! No matter how much time or effort I put in I’m not going to get what I want. I have to cut something because it’s hurting me and I’m not making any progress. There is no skill being used, no talent, silence and loneliness is all I have.…
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Success! – 5/24/23
Hello, I hope everyone is doing okay! I’ve had success the last couple days. I shook off the storm from last week. I was intimidated to log on Monday (5/22/23) and see what a hot mess I had gotten myself into last week and it ended with a “to be continued” situation. And then… I…
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Friday Reflection – 5/19/23
Hello, I hope everyone is doing okay! As I reflect on the week I don’t want to reflect on the negative which I had plenty of. I have had a couple weeks of no progress, but no progress of work was slow progress. I learned plenty other things anyway and I prepared by learning systems,…
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The Interview Process – 5/16/23
I hope everyone is doing okay! I want to write about the latest interview process because I thought that interviewing for one hour and thirty minutes was difficult enough especially that it turned more into a psychological interview and not a job interview. I thought I wouldn’t go through anything else to beat this past…
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Manic Monday – 5/15/23
Hello, I hope everyone is doing okay! It’s a catastrophe! The assumptions that people make that you already know what your role is without explaining it. I mention it to not complain, but I can’t believe this still happens. WOW! What a manic Monday it was for me. I got on to review the analysis…
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Friday Reflection – Week of Self-Doubt – 5/12/23
Hello, I hope everyone is doing okay! Uff! Tough week full of self-doubt. Why do I do this to myself? I have a lot of effort into healing, and I just fell right back into the trapped mindset. I was confused and questioned whether I could do this job. I am out of my comfort…
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Faith is a Struggle – 5/3/23
Hello, I hope everyone is doing okay! A lot of my struggles have been because I didn’t have faith in God and myself. As a kid no one knew that I went to church. I wasn’t aware of the importance. I only attended church because of my loving uncle who I miss so much. My…
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Bringing up old wounds – 5/4/23
I am happy for the former co-workers. I became aware today that management at my old job have changed for the better due to the recent departure of two of us having left our jobs abruptly. The change came at my cost and experience. My departure was due to the lack of support and delayed…
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Friday Reflection – 5/5/23
Hello, I hope everyone is doing okay! As I reflect on this week all I can think about is Thursday’s text conversation with an former co-worker that brought up old wounds. I became sad immediately because I did like the last job despite it was a lot, but I could no longer fight the battle…