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Feeling Comfortable in my Own Skin

Growing up (we) my family and I didn’t have much. My siblings and I were bullied, and I didn’t have a lot of friends because I was too afraid to be hurt by anyone else. I didn’t trust anyone, and I kept quiet to not attract any attention to myself. I never knew why I…
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To inconvenience me is okay – 2/10/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. I want to focus more on my blog, but I can’t I have so many other things going on that it’s difficult to keep up, but I write most of it in my journal, a little bit of room to breath as well. This allows me to get things…
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Are you bored? – 2/9/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. It’s been a while since I blogged. I haven’t had a chance to blog and read everyone’s posts either. So, just now I got some time to myself. My son’s birthday, my nieces baby shower, and my brother’s legal battle have kept me a little busy. As we all…
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Friday reflection – times of hard work – 2/6/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. I’ve been on high alert and unfocused at my regular tasks. This week as it has been since the beginning of the year seems much busier than last year. I’m a bit nervous, waiting to resolve the new deficit situation of finding $420K to fund an important program (blog…
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No one wants to talk to you – 2/4/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. I don’t like to be mean and I took the time to explain to the Sr. Manager the update on my projects. She tells me no one wants to talk to her and she was wondering why. I, of course, lied and told her I wasn’t sure. It’s not…
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Called in to explain the issue – 2/2/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. I received an email with the subject line, “what is the issue?” The administrator was asking what the issue is because MD “LAU” as I call her went to the head and boss of our whole department. I knew it was coming it was a matter of time, but…
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Friday reflection – challenged but winning – 1/30/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. The work keeps coming and piling up. The challenges that I thought were going to cause me grief, didn’t. I am so blessed, God hears my prayers. The things that are happening I’m able to resolve and I’m greatly influencing one person at a time with my actions, not…
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These are not mistakes, it’s bad leaders – 1/27/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. Once again I’m going to have put out a lot of time into the next big deficit. I feel like I’ve been on the losing end since I got hired here. People don’t understand the high stakes. And the people that have made the errors over and over again…
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Friday reflection – pressure on me again? – 1/23/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. What a stressful week. Boy was I getting it from every direction. What the heck is wrong with people? Had another tough week, busy, and my problem task went smooth yesterday, it worked out. And today was no exception, here we go again. The administrator tried to stress me…
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It worked out – 1/22/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. MD “LAU” as I call her wants to know where the error occurred. I told her, “DD” shorted the budget and we really didn’t have those funds in October 2024 and now we’re short on funds now. I’m not sure, I wasn’t here how he didn’t pull the financial…
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Like it or not – 1/21/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. Busy times working on dealing with last weeks news of no budgets and having to find cost savings to deal with the shortfall of year one for 3 programs. The forecast submitted by the lead person, “DD” as I call him was shorted and now we have no funds…