YoungHeart1980!

I hope everyone is doing okay. I was caught off guard today and my mouth let loose. I had enough of being scolded, reprimanded indirectly, and taken advantage of. While most deny to help I’m saying yes. I’m constantly showing up for others. No one is coming to save me either, but yet I’m giving and saving others. Today it was the Sr. Mgr’s turn to take a shot at me. Recently anyone just wants to attack me as if I have a target on my forehead and it’s getting old.

The Sr. Mgr seemed like she attempted to make me feel insecure about my work because she has no clue what’s been happening lately. She’s been gone on vacation or wherever, but not at work. We stayed behind on a call after one of my finance reviews. She was asking questions about the rebudget of current funds and creating the budgets for 2 years. I was answering her questions, no big deal. I noticed the look in her face of confusion and I told her to please continue asking and I would try to answer as best as I could to make sure she understood. After 10 minutes of attempting to show her and explain she says, “I’m just so worried we’re not going to get it right. I don’t want for this to turn out like it did before.” I responded and didn’t hold back. “Wait! You all did this, not me. I’m sure of my work, the spend, the forecasts, and my tracking. I’m trying to fix what you all created.” She responds, “Can I have your notes to go over with you? In case you are not here anymore or something happens I can explain, not that it would, I am able to explain.” My response, “You all created this so you should be able to explain what you did. You can have my work, but I don’t have time to go over it with you. What’s supposed to happen to me? I have sat in this chair for 15 months and you all have not taken any interest and now you want my work and for me to go through it with you. I have a deadline to meet and I don’t have time to go over anything with you. You all shorted these budgets and that’s why we’re in trouble and now I have to problem-solve. It sounds to me like my work isn’t trusted.” She responds, “Not at all, that’s not what I meant.” My response, “You said it. So I’ll take your words at face value.”

She basically is trying to deflect her insecurity and lack of experience on to me. 🤦‍♀️ She and others haven’t been responsible and held accountable in the past and not doing their job and now she wants to take it out on me. Nope, because you don’t understand my $20M project, the work, the rules and guidelines, the ask from the sponsor and now you have “beef” with the sponsor’s budget sheets? Who says that?! We don’t have a problem, you do. The nerve of this girl. I don’t have time for the drama I have work to do.

This is what happens when someone who is handed a promotion without earning it. 😂 🙂‍↕️I’m not making it easy for her. She better figure it out on her own. As a former manager I was supposed to know each position, not fully, but at least have some knowledge. All the Best!