Tag: tension
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Job insecurity – 3/26/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. I was caught off guard today and my mouth let loose. I had enough of being scolded, reprimanded indirectly, and taken advantage of. While most deny to help I’m saying yes. I’m constantly showing up for others. No one is coming to save me either, but yet I’m giving…
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Was I reprimanded? And she’s MIA – 3/18/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. I was having a good morning getting my day organized and chatting via teams with Director 2 answering questions regarding her budgets. Then she began to explain to me that she had an awkward conversation with MD “LAU,” “I was given a directive that I am not the head…
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Temper tantrum – 3/3/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. We had a meeting today with the administrator discussing the administrative fees and were not aligned across the projects. We will be audited by the sponsor so we have to get it right. We have to do our due diligence. Of course there goes the Sr. Manager talking about…
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Shutting us down – 3/2/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. For weeks Director 1 has been going back and forth between the MD and myself. She will normally come to me and ask questions that only I am able to answer. Truly she relies on me instead of actually caring to make notes or keep track. She goes back…
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Friday reflection – burn out – 2/20/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. I am worried, fighting hard, and trying to persevere. I don’t know how long this will continue. I have to find a way to step back, but I get pulled right back in because there’s so much reliance on me and creates a lot of work. I get lost…
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You cause more work than necessary – 2/18/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. She’s mad because I’m winning. Director 1 has been here with this department since 2019 and has not been able to get it. She’s attempted to try and make me lose it in front of her boss MD “LAU.” I have a feeling it’s her who wants to make…
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Called in to explain the issue – 2/2/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. I received an email with the subject line, “what is the issue?” The administrator was asking what the issue is because MD “LAU” as I call her went to the head and boss of our whole department. I knew it was coming it was a matter of time, but…
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Friday reflection – pressure on me again? – 1/23/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. What a stressful week. Boy was I getting it from every direction. What the heck is wrong with people? Had another tough week, busy, and my problem task went smooth yesterday, it worked out. And today was no exception, here we go again. The administrator tried to stress me…
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Friday reflection – forced acknowledgement – 1/16/26
I hope everyone is doing okay. Just because I don’t say much, doesn’t mean I don’t know. She loves to write these emails and makes comments putting people down in a “nice” way, as if we don’t know her manipulative tactics. In reality she tries to mask her ignorance and lack of knowledge, trying not…
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Face to face questions ignored- 12/17/25
I hope everyone is doing okay. My opinion, they don’t like how I operate, but there is no other choice. I’m the only one here and the only doing the work. They have no other choice but to follow my instruction. I’m doing the right thing and they feel as if I’m going to do…
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