YoungHeart1980!

I hope everyone is doing okay.

I’ working on so much to perfect the budgets, but I know it doesn’t exist. I am reminded that it will not be, nothing is. Only Jesus Christ is perfect. I do obsess and there’s only a couple people that can tell me to tone it down and stop obsessing or I’ll get stuck. They know me so well they pin point it and I do step back. I am reminded that things will work out, I surrender and God takes over. It’s been a tough week, a busy week. I’m ready to go into the weekend and adding the final budget adjustments with MD “SE.”

This next couple weeks are going to be nail biters and I did talk negatively to myself and it came out of me toward others. I really need to weekend to recoup and reset. I want to get these budget correct which are 14 total and in the millions we’re requesting for our programs. I have to remind myself and I pray that the fear leaves me. It’s my first budget cycle with this group and it’s always a little nerve racking. I’m reminded to just take the leap head-on and ask for feedback along the way.

Director 1 is once again silent and my questions have gone unanswered. She’s holding information back and I don’t know why. I don’t take it personal, but I can’t trust her either. I had small wins on other fronts so I’ll take those. If needed I’ll have to confront Director 1 and put it all out there on the table. Either you work as a team or I’ll have to make my own decisions based on historical information if I don’t hear from her. I have a feeling she’s having to hide that she cannot make decisions on her own budgets. She’s hiding something and doesn’t know how to compete with me, it’s a shame because I don’t mind working with her. She’s gotta learn to work hard and keep up or it will blow up in her face if she doesn’t know how to explain her budgets. All the Best!