Tag: stress work
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Things working against me – Part 2 – 12/28/23
I hope everyone is doing okay. The saga continues that everything seems to be my responsibility all of a sudden. I’m not sure people are working, but it doesn’t matter to the supervisor if I’m busy or not I had to put out another fire that didn’t belong to me. I question if better times…
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And now…things begin working against me – 12/27/23
I hope everyone is doing okay. I came back to work today and I am sitting here journaling sort of late, 10pm. My inbox was full and I was able to get to almost all the emails and/or move a lot of the tasks forward. I’m trusting that God will put me on the right…
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Anxious…letting go temporarily – 12/18/23
I hope everyone is doing okay. As I am sitting in the plane over 3,000 feet in the air I am anxious. Anxious of the unknown. I’m still being considered for the position after declining 2 times to interview. The organization won’t let go. They are being very flexible with me, although nervous I reluctantly…
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Learn to ride the waves – 12/3/23
I hope everyone is doing okay. Shifting my mindset took a while because I needed to understand why so much adversity. Why so much negativity around this place? I tried so many ways to change the daily grind of this work to no avail. I won’t let me get me down, less others. I am…
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Unwelcomed feedback – 11/15/23
I hope everyone is doing okay. I value myself, my worth and I know that my work is being watched. I know the type of work I produce because the last twenty years of evaluations I didn’t have not one bad mark. I open my email at 9:30am this morning to be greeted by emails…
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Weakening progress – 11/14/23
I hope everyone is doing okay. I’m slowly making progress. This has been the biggest challenge of my career. Its been a difficult period. I’m growing and expanding at a very slow pace incredibly never seen before. Things have not been right for a really long time. I keep re-starting. I jumped into this job…
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Staying calm during battle time – 11/1/23
I hope everyone is doing okay. I’m trying to stay grounded, keep my cool, stay confident while on the spotlight. I’m taking this as a learning experience and not beating myself up for things that happened. They cannot happen again though! I wasn’t able to refresh my report so I had to hard code my…
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Building character – 10/31/23
I hope everyone is doing okay. The ultimate weight is on my shoulders now. It’s overwhelming. I’m working a lot. Incredible how I’m processing so many things and to me it’s urgent, but no one else seems to act as if anything is important? I am on the spotlight. I’m presenting financials on my own…
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Friday reflection – Confusing week – 10/27/23
I hope everyone is doing okay. This week has been a rollercoaster ride, very confusing with what happened. I’m busy, been struggling to keep up with the work, but I will not give up. I’m running on nearly empty. The strange part is that on Tuesday, 10/24/23, I wrote about being frustrated, feeling invisible. Then…
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Logged off early – 10/16/23
Hope everyone is doing okay. I guess people are having Monday blues, again this vicious cycle I’ve observed in these past months of stubbornness. I do a lot. All they do is watch what I’m doing, how I work and what I produce. I received several messages asking, “what do you mean?” We speak the…
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