YoungHeart1980!

I hope everyone is doing okay.

This team is something else the bickering continues among each other. I was told that I should direct all my requests to MD “LAU” directly. (Blog 3/18/26) Director 1 told me there’s a process, but now she’s gone on vacation suddenly and did not send me the “process.” I receive information and it doesn’t make sense to me, it’s not complete, and it’s not my job to decipher on my own. MD “LAU” is under the impression that I am the issue? The reason why I ask is because I sent 2 emails to the team and asked for a meeting, access to their files, and additional information or approval to pay invoices. Both emails go unanswered or I got vague information. Today MD “LAU” started to respond with no good information, only sarcasm as usual. I’m not her kind and not her “cup of tea.” She can show me where she feels her team is great other than Director 2’s team, I don’t see any progress and organization front the other half of her team. It’s been drama and a hot mess. The 3rd email with her response made no sense, sarcastic, and caught me at a moment where I was already dealing with tasks that were challenging me. Instead of including me in their process they purposely leave me out. I get I’m not part of the team but at least allow me to add input. They hired someone that gets to choose what they do. I can’t, there should be checks and balances and they want to cut concerns. I cannot do it all theres a purpose for their business coordinator and a purpose for me that does not include doing it all. My job is to check their work. I thought MD “LAU” was going to be mean toward me, but she wasn’t. She was apologetic and they would answer my questions. I guess I should’ve been aggressive a while back.

I feel blocked at work and its been challenging since the beginning. I’m not perfect, not even close, but people lack humbling. I reached my limit and bent over backward for these people, continue to overgive and they only take. I neglect my own needs constantly and have to correct it soon.

I want peace and not have a chaotic job. All the Best!