YoungHeart1980!

I hope everyone is doing okay. Just because I don’t say much, doesn’t mean I don’t know. She loves to write these emails and makes comments putting people down in a “nice” way, as if we don’t know her manipulative tactics. In reality she tries to mask her ignorance and lack of knowledge, trying not show she hasn’t earned her job. She really hasn’t earned it, she was just at the right place and the right time. No one cares. I do have to say this though because she makes a lot attempts to stay in control. She will be nice just turn around and take another stab to my back. She misses each time.

The “corner” thought I was lying. Lying on my resume and my skillset. I don’t need evidence, their actions show it. I have worked diligently, proud, and focused. I stay at least a step ahead. I try to see things before they happen and making the best decisions. I’ve always been this way, sometimes too much. I do this even when I commute into the office I try to predict what the other drivers will do. Crazy huh? Just a little. 🤣

With nothing else to say about the latest bomb dropped (blog 1/15/26), the Sr. Manager had the following to say to me in an email at 9:25pm last night. Manager: I understand that it might not slow down and you are doing a really good job. You are leading the program and department well. It’s a lot work and I appreciate all you do. Thank you.

Me: I appreciate the note and thank you. It is a lot. Hope you’re well. It’s not the amount of work, but the unknown, the challenges that keep coming with no information available to me from this team. It comes from the external, the sponsor. I’m having to face another challenge head-on that just sprung-up and adds to the work load. We’re forced to find cost-savings from other funding sources because there is no budget. As long as this job doesn’t spill into my personal time I’m going to continue to work here. It’s important work. Have a great weekend.”

The Sr. Manager only applied a heart emoji to my email. I’m sure she doesn’t want a 2nd resignation letter from me on her desk. She’s trying to get ahead of the “shit” storm about to come. The medical doctor’s have not yet been informed of the latest drama. I’m not sure why the “corner” keeps telling my I’m doing really good work. It’s not them so they can’t say anything better than “good work.” They have no clue what I do on a daily basis and what I have to go through because of the decisions they made. Another nail-biting situation for me. I have people that trust me and others tell me how the Sr. Manager speaks of me. That’s cool, I’m not mad. I bet she won’t tell me to my face.😉 I’ll let her know that she can take the job back and what she can do with it. 👌

I was having a good week until I received the news that the forecast and financials submitted back in October 2024 shows there was plenty of budget in this year to fund 3 programs. In actuality there really wasn’t and all 3 program did not receive funds this year. I bet no one will lose their job over this. I received the evidence. It’s dejavue all over again when I discovered we were in debt $3.1M. Is it really worth it to continue bailing these people out. One thing for sure they can’t control or manipulate situations, I have the receipts.

The “corner” smiles to my face and then when something goes wrong they try to make it seem like it’s my fault. Nope, I have the evidence. They don’t like it. I’m bigger, stronger, knowledgeable. It’s their turn to tread lightly with me. I have to get back to work, let me do my job and get out of my way. If they spent the same amount of time working rather than covering things up we would be in much better position. I lost count of how many bails outs I’ve handled for them. Once again, here I go, another clean up. My faith is stronger and I know I will get through it through trial and error, you learn it’s not that bad anymore. God is great, he gave me the knowledge. I believe in myself and I hold details of all these projects, only me. It’s something they can’t handle and don’t want to voluntarily take over. All the Best!