YoungHeart1980!

I hope everyone is doing okay. I was wrong and I’ll say when I”m wrong. Today I felt so angry and raised my voice at my boss, but not yelling at him, it was the situation. I told him I had no help. Everyone has a limit and that limit was met for me. He told me not to take anything personal. I agreed and told him it was not personal.

“EO” as I’ll call her doesn’t want to see the reality of the trash problems her staff person created. She makes a comment to me, “You’re killing me.” It’s so easy to get on me because I’m the only facing the brunt of each situation. Her staff person created a mess and has been out sick for 3 days and then goes on vacation. I’m putting in a lot of time on behalf of your program and all you can tell me is how unhappy 🙁 you are. The message should be to your staff not me I’m not the one hiding and running from this mess I’m trying to fix it.

How can you tell me that “we” as a team have to do things differently when “EO” as I’ll call her has staff that are not doing just that of learning and changing instead just sit there and let it go to crap. All they do is stay silent, take more time to cover things up than asking for help so that I can help. They leave things pending for weeks and I have to remind them 2-3 times before they get to work. The stress overcame me and I didn’t mean to raise my voice, but he helps when it’s not necessary and when I do need help he will with a little lost, makes no sense to him, but I just follow and finish, he tries.

My emotions got the best of me and feel like people are working against me and not with me due to the number of fires I’ve been putting out this week. He immediately put me at ease by helping me find a resolution and it was just like that, solved. It’s nice to have back up. He said, “Look if you can’t make the correction go ahead and post it to the other account. Ask for help, but don’t let it stress you, it’s not worth it. Sometimes we care too much, but it shouldn’t hurt 😔 us.” I immediately apologized and I calmed down. “I’m sorry I was rude and I shouldn’t address you in that manner. Of everyone you don’t deserve my harsh words.” He’s also overwhelmed and I was selfish to only think it’s happening to me. I feel bad and I keep thinking about it. I’m off to pray 🙏, “God please heal my heart ♥️. Don’t let evil 😈 win.”

I thought he lied to me that the month closed today and actually it was 9/8/25. But I could use either date. I’m not perfect and I end the day heavy from so much emotion, drained, and sad. All the Best!