YoungHeart1980!

I hope everyone is doing okay. I have responded to several emails in a sarcastic mood because they think I have this indispensable amount of time and energy. The mentality of “give it to the new person.” I don’t want to inflict hurt or be ugly to anyone even though there is an urge to I have to remember to be calm. I was told others won’t do it because it’s my job now. I am careful now how I respond because I don’t want to get fired either if I truly respond how I really think. I have become a one-stop-shop. I’m constantly in crisis mode these days.

There are a lot of audit and compliance issues happening right now that has become stressful. I’m playing catch up and seems I’m on the phone a lot more now asking the questions. It’s not pleasant because it has put a stop to taking action, but not a detriment either because I am learning. My shield is up at the moment of self-care, strength, and nurture to be resilient for the next phase. I’m taking a step back and take time off.

I’m going back into my shell of protection to clear my mind and reset. There is a need to declutter, detach, and release before I start over. It is good someone validates my experiences when it is commented by my supervisor that I do look exhausted and understands because he sees my communication, approves, and supports me quite a bit.