YoungHeart1980!

I hope everyone is doing okay. I want to focus more on my blog, but I can’t I have so many other things going on that it’s difficult to keep up, but I write most of it in my journal, a little bit of room to breath as well. This allows me to get things off my chest too.

Unorganized, un driven, sloppy, and I can’t get along with these people because I operate and hold myself to high standards. I don’t know everything but I do everything I can to perform my duties to the best of my ability. It’s embarrassing at times to watch external colleagues outside of my organization perform brilliantly and come well prepared. I think to myself if they looked into our team it would be a complete shock to others. Mostly the minimal is done and unproductive best describes this group at the moment.

It takes everything out of me not to roll my eyes 🙄. There’s very few of us that really care. Today I repeated myself form last month in the finance meeting. Where are the notes you’re supposed to be taking? HR is no better, they can’t figure out the MD’s time of which projects they are supposed to be working on. It’s a scattered brain situation and not sure if it’s in the water or what?

I offered to train new staff on travel guidelines and I was blown off or instead of going back and forth on emails I asked them to join my travel Q&A call and I would answer any questions. This would avoid answering the same questions over and over. But no, I only had 5 people join. As they traveled and have come back they are again seeking guidance. I open my emails and I have about 15 emails all asking the same questions. I offered a call with everyone and all declined. So, I rejected their reimbursement request and sent them a link to go over the travel guidelines and resubmit. Of course it’s an inconvenience to them. They don’t have time…okay, well that sounds like they have to read the guidelines now.

The Director sounds and acts dumb too and she’s not it’s just being lazy. I answer the same questions over and over for her and are documented. My only response, “see previous emails.”

I’m sitting here studying, learning the budget process so I can get it right, doing everything I can so I am able to answer questions when the time comes if any. This is my first cycle of going through 14 programs with a total of about $35M with this organization. All they do is one job, easy one by the way too. I have 4 jobs all rolled into me. All the Best!