YoungHeart1980!

I hope everyone is doing okay.

Wow! My day was going okay, busy, working a lot, but quiet. I was on a roll completing tasks. Then came the finance meeting and I noticed the MD coming on to the meeting already upset, careless, and rude by her comments. I was surprised because I thought the program team was in agreement with me yesterday and now for some strange reason the MD is not happy? The MD and I did the exercise together of whose time was going on each project and I thought everything was okay. The MD was rude and one of the Director’s didn’t say anything when I also met with her about the same thing separately and my message was the same to both. Basically I’m the only one who knows what should happen and how to move forward. They both don’t know what is going on and don’t understand any of it. That is scary. I’m basically running this piece of the program.

Three people created this budget over one year ago and cannot tell me where the program expands, what will discontinue, and what is priority and what is not. No notes to the budget sheets of justification for their requests. The meeting ended with silence and me being the only one with explanations and trying to make sense of it all with no help and no questions answered. I had to bite my tongue to go through the lines again and adjust. In reality there’s nothing to adjust. Nothing to change. I didn’t let it get to me I’m confident of my work and I followed the sponsor’s guidance.

They took their frustrations out at me for their lack of understanding their own work and budgets. One of the two Director’s is freaking out and I can tell she’s in the MD’s ear, fills the MD’s head with doubts because she doesn’t understand her programs budgets and blames me. I’m 99% sure this is what’s happening, but I can say one thing she won’t confront me about it. I, at least know what’s happening with her program and ultimately will go agree with my assessment. Watch… All the Best!