YoungHeart1980!

I hope everyone is doing okay. I am forcing myself to work. A lot to get done. After last week I can’t dedicate the same energy, less passion to my work. No one knows or understands because it’s not them in my shoes. it’s an awful feeling that you put everything of yourself into your job and in the end it was for nothing. The administrator and my boss feel my work is only good. Their mind is made up and I am not looking forward to any promotion or salary raise which we’re not getting one this time around anyway, but when it really came to acknowledging all my efforts they failed to do it.

Here I am once again, going through an audit, guiding and instructing. I received this on Monday with selected items to pull from our document files. Not sure how that’s going to happen. There are few files and the ones we do have are out of whack. You can’t find anything. I really don’t know how this department has been able to operate, really. I’m about to start writing justifications and try to explain why there is no record. The young lady and Sr. Manager just returned from being on leave. She was not confident she has record of any documents since the former employee and the supervisor didn’t get along? Huh 🤔? What does that have anything to do with doing their job. In any case she said she would dig in her email and see if she could find the requested documents. It doesn’t seem to cause alarm 🚨 to them except for me, but I’ve already been through many audits in my career and each one was not easy, but ready, and passed. Audits are necessary to be sure we are in compliance and good stewards of supporting our projects and completing the work.

Then our system was charging overhead for a line item that shouldn’t and our sponsor caught it, not us, not our system, and not our central finance representative, embarrassing 😳. We got schooled and didn’t feel good. I, of course, had to “face the music.” I had to respond and keep track and do finance “spot checks” to confirm to our sponsor that we ✅ corrected the issue. All the overhead charged erroneously had to be reversed and credited back once we identified the source of the problem. The source was someone didn’t uncheck the overhead option off the line item despite the request being made weeks ago. Go figure…

Feels like I’m always on the defensive. I have never seen anything like this before. I don’t even know what to call it. All the Best!