YoungHeart1980!

I hope everyone is doing okay. I don’t think that in these past 9 months I have been really upset like I was today. MD “P” as I’ll call her is making waves across the isle with external institutions and causing alarm internally. The administrator is now wanting to press on with taking budget from one initiative to give to another.

MD “P” doesn’t know the ins and outs of this project and important movements happening at the moment, sees or hears them. Why make waves where no one is calling you, you have to insert your opinion and forms doubts, stirring things up that shouldn’t come instead of reaching out to me. The email and communication went to the department head. This resulted with another fire that is not necessary at the moment. I was now told to go to the sponsor and ask for clarification when this is not important at the moment.

Once again we’re going to be looking like fools that we don’t know what we’re doing. I tried pushing back internally and was ruled against. What they want to do is not easy, rules exist, and they try to do whatever they want when they want to. It doesn’t work this way. I tried to dissect all the information to them and they don’t read my emails or call me to understand, so stubborn. They don’t hear anything else, it has to be done their way. I’m forced to do extra work when I already know the answer and despite providing an explanation, no one hears or believes my judgement. I’ll remind them once I hear back from the sponsor of the same response.

Next, my boss tried to light a match to my rear about not having a project account to move all payroll off the department account. Right, it doesn’t belong to the department and it’s not in debt. Okay… How’s that my problem now? I have tried to tell them for one week to put weight to my emails, nothing. There’s nothing I can do now. Now it has become a problem because it has hit your lap, your area, and you’re having to answer for it. Finally the administrator found the courage to send an email to the higher ups. The central office made an error and I completed the incorrect budget form. I’m working at 4pm this afternoon to update it. I completed the budget sheet again and uploaded. There is no streamline process. This whole organization is unorganized.

Oh my gosh! I got off and took a drive to my parent’s house and forgot about today’s crap. I went to a safe space to calm down. My parents made a hot meal for dinner and made it all better. All the Best!