YoungHeart1980!

I hope everyone is doing okay.

I woke up this morning wrestles, couldn’t sleep last night thinking of my presentation today to a top investigator. It turns out it should’ve been the least of my worries. I killed it. Did well and at my best, but first this happened…

I hadn’t even finished my first cup of coffee and my supervisor is telling both the HR guy and myself we have to start picking up the phone and call people, things have to get done. The supervisor gave the HR guy a beating forwarding internal email to external departments. I didn’t think it was a big deal, but okay.

Before I got off work I got my beating this evening too of not pushing people harder, we need answers quicker and some people complained that they didn’t understand my task comments and that their part of the task was completed. I spoke up of having to push things back because I don’t get answers timely. The impression I get is, it’s okay to keep pushing tasks back from month to month. My observation is that it may take several months for one task to be completed and my supervisor totally flipped out and I told her I feel like a failure because I’m not used to working this way of meeting with investigators and keep pushing tasks back to several months, I’d be fired if I were at my previous job. I am forced to wait on others, why are they complaining about me, they should be glad I’m reminding them! Are they doing their share of the work so I don’t keep pushing things back? No! Well, why are they pointing the finger at me? I stay on my game as mush as I can.

I’m overwhelmed, I’ve never seen such a thing and out of my control. We’re all adults I shouldn’t have to baby anyone. She was not happy and I don’t feel bad about it either. I’m not playing child’s game. As usual, it’s not work, it’s the people. I can’t wrap my head around the childish behavior. All the Best!