YoungHeart1980!

I hope everyone is doing okay. Once again I’m going to have put out a lot of time into the next big deficit. I feel like I’ve been on the losing end since I got hired here. People don’t understand the high stakes. And the people that have made the errors over and over again still have a job, no one asks them where error happened and of course I have to deal with it and give face for it. I’m the only who is asked and have to provide answers. I get it I took the job. This has weighed heavy and even though I am not responsible for the cause of the deficit I still have to work through a process, make the decisions, and ask the questions through the trial and error.

I have to find funds for MD “SE” programs and it’s not a good feeling for me or for the other MD that I am sweeping funds from to cover someone else’s programs. The person that was supposed to be the expert didn’t do their due diligence.

Next, the administrator stressed me out to rush and to return ask the sponsor to send back a fully executed contract because we have to show our books are in the positive and not in the red! The administrator and my boss are trying to show that we are not in the red, not have to explain why the department is not making money. Someone is making bad choices and it has nothing to do with me. They are desperate and the disregard my advice. They want to borrow money that doesn’t belong to them at all. I was opposed to it and didn’t agree to any of it. Leave me out of it.

Then, here comes the Sr. Manager and “MM” the payroll lady with their errors about someone not receiving their paycheck. The MD grilled them and I think she now sees who and where the errors happen and it’s not me. The Sr. Manager gave the MD a big ball of jibberish talk and it took so much out of me to not laugh. The call went quiet and I didn’t say anything I let them answer and it was an awkward silence. I sat there looking at both waiting. I didn’t say a word. I’m no longer taking the heat for everything. Later, the Sr. Manager sent us an email full of bull that I know well didn’t make sense. “Not putting anyone on temporary accounts until the MD’s approve. I’ll talk to the administrator and lead finance people.” I ignored it because she was not willing to say it on the call in front of my face. No, it’s really you who doesn’t know what you’re doing. She doesn’t know how to lead and your payroll person doesn’t understand the research account process and the payroll entries. I didn’t respond at all. I ignored the email full of lies, but not happy at all. I will catch her “live” on the next call. All the Best!