YoungHeart1980!

I hope everyone is doing okay. I pray often and have faith that God leads me in the right direction and to allow me to make the best decisions at work because I really don’t have a lot of support. I’m single-handedly operating on my own. There is not any other experience of project management here in this department. I am fully responsible for what happens with $34M combined of 21 different projects.

My boss had been mentioning for 3 weeks that he was working on my evaluation. I didn’t feel like I had anything to worry about because I knew I worked hard and it shouldn’t be a low rating. I received an email with only a snippet from my boss saying we would discuss my evaluation tomorrow during our weekly meeting. I received comments, a rating, and category of “meets” or “exceeds expectations.” One, the comments didn’t make sense I apparently have to take excel courses as training. Two, the rating I received is a 3.4/5! Three, my overall is “exceeds expectations” where 2 of the 5 categories were labeled “meet expectations.” I disagreed with most of the evaluation. An employee should not go into a performance evaluation surprised and blindsided with no full documentation for the reason of the comments. This evaluation did not demonstrate even 50% of my work in 10 months! I was so hurt, angry, and the tears flowed.

The arduous, long hours, number of tasks, clean up, training of others, negotiating and analyzing through a $3.1M deficit, filling in for vacant positions, cross-training without disruption to the department and/or program, financial reporting, progress reports, and payroll were all responsibilities of mine, and I don’t even mention all the work outside of my role all with no merit raise. Someone really doesn’t like me. I responded to my boss that I look forward to the discussion because I know the rating clearly doesn’t reflect the full scope of my work in 10 months. I disagree with his version of my evaluation. At 2:24 pm my work day came to an end, cleared my tears as I felt betrayed, taken advantage of, overworked, sacrificed on behalf of others, and in the end not even acknowledged for all my efforts. All the Best!