YoungHeart1980!

I hope everyone is doing okay. My performance evaluation is coming up. I evaluated myself already and it’s weird because I didn’t get any feedback and I wasn’t sure how to answer the questions or the process because it’s my first cycle going through it at this organization. I’m sort of anxious because my boss keeps telling me it’s coming and I haven’t received his responses to my initial submission. The evaluation with my signature is due next week on Friday and I haven’t received anything. I don’t know that my evaluation will be fair.

Here we go again with MD “LAU” and the contracts. She’s being difficult and pushing back on me as if I’m the problem. She indirectly insults me via email and continues to be harsh. Seems like she’s taking it out on me and I’m not sure it’s really about two agreements. The toxic environment is showing since we’ve had a few people quit including my co-worker who recently transferred to a new department. It’s really the people who work here and not the actual work. The higher ups promote bad behavior or ignore it.

I respond to MD “LAU” via email that I am having 1 of 2 agreements signed because there’s a lot more at stake than just two projects that affect her. The contracts affect additional stakeholders and most of the budgets are consistent with our agreement and discussions with our sponsor. She tells me she doesn’t want what happened earlier this year to us happen again. Okay, well thanks for the trust. Why hire me if you don’t trust my work? As far as I’m concerned we’re on track 95% thus far and her instability and insecurity from her program team has nothing to do with me. I’m confident of my work and what I have completed thus far. Our documents show what we’re supposed to be awarded for each project. If she had any doubts she had more than one opportunity to do it and she didn’t. Maybe she should hire someone else or replace her Director who doesn’t seem to understand her own thought process for her budgets. All the Best!