YoungHeart1980!

I hope everyone is doing okay. After a fun vacation I’m back to blogging. I’m way behind, but it’s okay I am doing what makes me happy and that’s family first then blogging.

I feel like I’m fighting people and they are not showing their face to me head-on. They are putting obstacles in my way. I can’t prove it, but it’s an intuition. I hope I’m wrong. I am working and fighting alone. I am worried, sleepless nights, and ready to take direct hits. I have to prep myself and show a confident face. It’s nail biting when you don’t have anyone that can support you or understands the obstacles you face. All the sadness and stress are not visible, only when you make a mistake is when you get noticed. She’s hands off and careless, it’s frustrating to deal with. She does copy my ideas and makes it seem like she is the mastermind of the operation here. My intuition tells me she does take credit for my work, not just mine, but all of ours. She has time to take an excel class, but not available to support me. She can do whatever she pleases, not my business, but there is important business she should be attending to in the department. She will say she will help, but will turn around and give it back to me, does nothing with the task, waiting until I’m available and say she didn’t have time? She doesn’t understand my role and can’t focus or assist because she might not know but is not saying either. She will cut me off on the topic of research conversation that doesn’t interest her.

It feels like I’m fighting to get my work approved. People are calling me and asking why I am making changes, and I should’ve done it before, the deadline is near, it’s a problem, do it my way…okay! The sponsor who gave the budget just reduced it. Didn’t you read my email? I am committed to see it through, I’m tired that I have to talk to so many people and each wants it their way! Hope it ends well with a resolution. All the Best!