YoungHeart1980!

I hope everyone is doing okay and ready to receive the new year. I have dealt with selfish, immature and egotistical people. My year has been of resilience and pushing me to the limit and I’m still standing. Until today they did it. I believe it’s pushing me to something better and ready welcome the new.

As I close my entry for this year at work, once again I’m asking for an update on the same report from yesterday. Again I’m asking for updates on tasks, holding my breath hoping that someone responds. There were 2 young ladies helping me outside of this department, so appreciative that someone took the time to assist. They are the few outside of the department that I can go to because there is only 1 person internally that doesn’t have all the necessary resources, but is willing to help me. There’s something about my supervisor that I don’t trust. She leans her support to favor certain people, causes imbalance and not closing things that should be simple to close. I cannot continue to carry such a heavy workload and despite sharing my concerns she ignores and turns “blind eye.” She mentioned to me she knows it’s unfair, but didn’t provide answers or solutions. She ultimately told me in so many words I’m responsible for it all. She’s impulsive, loud and cuts me off immediately to redirect my conversation to avoid asking for a raise. Not at all what I want. The imbalance and my happiness are of upmost importance.

She forcefully wants me to fall into her way of working and doing and I’m not. It’s chaotic. We need structure and she’s stubborn to put any structure in place. I’m not holding people’s hands, I’m not the supervisor. She doesn’t care about my health or workload and this is the 2nd time I bring it up. She doesn’t want to hear it, only do the work and not complain, in her words. I’m gearing up to speak up soon, but I will take it all the way to the top and walk away. All the Best!