YoungHeart1980!

I hope everyone is doing okay. Time and time I have spent to try and make this work. I feel that I take a step forward just so that something out of my control forces me to take two steps back. Despite all the energy and effort nothing is working of adjusting and re-adjusting I come out drained each time.

This week I am more convinced that I do not belong. I like the work, no doubt, but for people here it doesn’t matter. It’s okay to be delayed, late and much later often two months or more! I don’t understand and honestly have never seen anything like this before throughout my career. I do not agree with the culture, there is no change happening and I keep hearing it will.

I give away a lot of me and no amount of money will give me back what I lost. I’m left without energy and weakened with stress due to the amount of information, tracking and follow up. Dealing with careless attitude doesn’t help either. I’m asked to do more even after.

I am focusing on what matters otherwise I’ll be left with only loss. I am shifting my mindset to begin searching for the right path, again. All the Best!