YoungHeart1980!

I hope everyone is doing okay. This week has been a rollercoaster ride, very confusing with what happened.

I’m busy, been struggling to keep up with the work, but I will not give up. I’m running on nearly empty. The strange part is that on Tuesday, 10/24/23, I wrote about being frustrated, feeling invisible. Then suddenly on Wednesday, 10/25/23 as I open my job’s skype app I saw a message about a recurring meeting with my supervisor for Tuesday’s. I began receiving emails with beginning of fiscal year information, some of which I already had, but now I’m supposed to be brought up to speed on what?!

I also felt powerless and uncomfortable not being able to “officially” present financials for one of the investigators because I did not have all the details, I backed down on this one. I do not want to ever look like a fool – I wasn’t ready. It feels as if someone doesn’t want me to know what they know?

I guess I’m going to have to find training on my own. This is not something easy to find someone who will show me. I’m praying on it. I’m capable. I’m ready, sometimes it feels as if I go from rejection after rejection. All the Best!