YoungHeart1980!

I hope everyone is doing okay. I feel that happiness doesn’t last for me. I feel good one day and I am grateful just for the feeling to be taken away by work.

I just got off work, it’s 6:30pm and sitting here wondering what I should title my entry. I do have a lot to write about my long day. I was so busy I lost track of time. I’m alone, working and under pressure because I am carrying a heavier workload now. The morning started with an upgrade to my laptop because I couldn’t refresh my excel financial reports. I said a little prayer this would solve the issue and turned on my candle “stress relief.”

It worked, IT was able to resolve my situation and ready to slay the dragons. I was able to knock out several portfolios of financials for review to the supervisor, 7 of 11 exactly. Each portfolio can contain 6-20 projects. My supervisor didn’t approve all of them and found error after error and rejected most of them. In the end I didn’t achieve my goal of emailing 7 of 11 final reports to the investigators, only 2 of 11. After a few calls and confirmed error due to outdated information, I think I still did pretty good overall.

I felt the pressure now but looking at it from a different angle this time around. If this gets to be too much I have to let, go once I can no longer see clear. I know myself so I stayed up late to adjust my workspace, listen to Tony Robbins, filled my space with motivational frames, put pictures up of my family to remind me of why I do what I do. I am blessed because I had to change a little bit of me to see the best of me. Despite the rejections I had to give myself encouragement that I at least tried.