YoungHeart1980!

I hope everyone is doing okay. Not sure what is going on at work. My mind is stuck. Things are unfair, nothing new to me, but at this stage I thought I left people and these energies back in the past?!

Everything is unbalanced and I’m once again giving away my pure and genuine self, hard at work and be treated less than my worth. I want things to work out, but they don’t seem to be. I have made work friends and belong to groups in the past. I don’t know what to do because no one seems to play by the rules either. I can’t deal with it and don’t want to talk about it. I care about the job and still do good, honest work. I have a fear now I will be really alone at work, crazy! It’s like people don’t want to be social at work. I’m trying to force myself to show up to an event, but most likely will sit by myself. It’s difficult and easier to shut myself from the world of work. I am safe at home. As much as I try to talk to people it or try to have a conversation, it’s one-sided. I come off confident, but terrified inside. I ignore the rudeness in emails, but what if someone is ugly to me on a call or in person? I’ve had plenty of adversity already and it’s only been 5 months here. The culture is unpleasant, it’s too quiet. I observe and in silence.

I’m moving forward on my own it seems. Good luck to me. I stand strong, but alone. It’s insane! Never experienced anything like it. All the Best!