YoungHeart1980!

I’m glad to be writing today, hope everyone is okay.

Even though I ended on a good note last week I can’t stop thinking of all these feelings I’m holding on to. I walked out of my house suddenly to take a walk, frustrated. I’m not comfortable because I can’t express how I really feel. I tell her it’s okay when it’s really not. I have a lot to say and I don’t want to say it.

I have kept away from her and the other two and focused to reach the goal and achieve it their way. I am in a box now. There’s no one to talk to and troubleshoot. It’s too much trial and error, but I am learning important things of resolving these minor technology glitches by trial and error. I am slowly coming out of the mud pit on my own. I got this, but I still won’t express my thoughts because now I know they won’t be accepted or supported.

I will not speak up because it’s nothing crucial, but I still haven’t met a goal yet. I’m focused on not allowing my feelings to fill my head and heart with negativity. Looking on the bright side I did have a good end to the week. What I am doing is putting this job under silent notice of whether I am going to fit in. It’s been overwhelming despite I don’t show it. All the Best!