YoungHeart1980!

Hello, I hope everyone is doing okay!

No matter how much time or effort I put in I’m not going to get what I want. I have to cut something because it’s hurting me and I’m not making any progress. There is no skill being used, no talent, silence and loneliness is all I have. I’m not sharing or collaborating, not creating. The little I’ve able to pull together is mostly my effort and the only thing I have to show for it is a black eye.

I’m not sleeping trying to figure out how else to help only to get a “no” for an answer or “you don’t need that.” My purpose for coming here has been lost. Where do I go, what do I do? What I learn I can’t teach because I can’t share or don’t talk to others. The only thing left for me to do is considering looking again. I get turned down in any direction. I feel blocked from moving around. I’m having to shift my energy every day and maintain high vibrations a lot throughout the day. Her immaturity is annoying, her passive-aggressive behavior is an emotional roller coaster. Uff! Friday, I had to put a stop to the childish behavior and today be assertive. There is no structure, I feel my brain is scattered. It’s her way. I am praying for change.

Some type of improvement has to happen now. The dishonesty is the part that hurts, not painful, it wastes time. I am having to heal each day I get off. I learned to heal and got rid of the black eye. I surrender to happiness and have to shake off the challenging energy. I’m strengthening my boundaries with her and I had enough. I get off each day and I come back to myself clearing my mind to go to the best part of my day is to be a MOM. All the Best!